Friday, 22 July 2011

Looking to the future

So readers... I was watching a show quite similar to the Katie Piper show that many people have seen. It's called "Kellie: The Girl Who Played With Fire" and it's about a girl who's suffered all her life with burn marks, and her story is absolutely incredible!
I feel so bad about even blogging about my condition. Some people have gone through so much! And you never realise it! But it really hones in, NEVER GIVE UP! No matter what you've gone through, or what you're going through, there is always somewhere out there to help!

But this show really honed in to me that we take so much for granted and instead of just sitting around like coach potatoes we actually need to do something! There are so many treatments availbale in other countries but unavailble to many people suffering in the United Kingdom who are unable to afford the flight, so however you can, PLEASE help raise money for the Katie Piper Foundation! However you can! Believe me, it is going to an incredible cause! And no matter what, never judge on someone on their looks! Get to know them first! Please, for my sake!

ALSO, another point, I'm just about to turn 16 so am applying for lots of jobs as I'm broke like nearly everyone my age and want to make my own money, and I was filling out an application form recently and it said "Do you have any disabilities?", I went to tick no as I don't deem myself as having any, but they put "This also includes skin conditions" so I had to put down yes, which makes me feel horrible! I don't have any disabilities, some people do have disabilities and for them I pray for them! It must be horrendous living with any sort of disability but I'm an able young girl, I'm able to do whatever I want, just because I have a few scars doesn't make me unable to do a job. I am perfectly able. I am not disabled. You disrespectful *****!

Thursday, 14 July 2011

Giving up

Hi readers, or the infinite black space that is the internet.
Sorry I haven't been on in a while I finally finished my GCSE exams, they went horrifically mainly due to the lack of revision during study leave and the sudden interest in piano and weird, yet wonderful makeup. I also went on a wonderful vacation with my boyfriend (n'aww!), yes it was uber-cute, yes i loved every moment of it and yes, i had a lot of fun. BUT. My skin was improving, like majorly improving, it took me a while to locate any red spots on my skin, and considering I've now become an expert at this art, I was getting excited. Really excited! I was over the moon!
I think I've been reading too many Pick Me Ups as this is now starting to sound like one of their articles, but anyway, I shall continue.
I was thrilled, amazed, all the happy vocabularies you can think of. And then I flew back.... I really wished I stayed out there. I've been back one day and I seem to have turned into some sort of blotchy balloon, not only that but my stomach (which causes eczema) has turned into a churning pit of illness. I feel horrible. After feeling so great, it's such a let down. And through everything, I've been positive, trying to look on the upside but something has got me. People. People annoy me. People who say "they understand". Yes, okay, you had eczema, as a child or even as a baby, but you've never had any problems like this. You have no idea what it feels like so stop being high on your own horse. You don't know what it feels like to have your own body rejecting you and trying to fight against you, trying to hurt you, trying to kill you. No-one knows what that is like till they've been through out. They don't know how cold it is at night, while you shiver and gag while others sleep pleasantly. They don't know what it's like to have to cancel things you've been looking forward to for weeks and instead sitting in bed all day. They don't know what it's like to have people call your names, to have people call you a liar for being ill or taking the piss. YOU DON'T KNOW, SO DON'T SAY YOU UNDERSTAND.
Sometimes it's hard in the morning to get out of bed to know that you'll look shit, feel shit and be generally shit. It's hard to carry on. But I do it. Everyday. I will never give up. As long as I can still breath, I will fight with everything part of my being, cause no matter what anyone says, I have a life, I have friends and I have a loving family and I am going to live my life cause at the end of the day as cheesy as it is you only get one shot at life and you need to make the most of it! No matter what I go through, there are people out there worse off than me, and I will try everything to help myself and others! I have faith.
Call me dramatic, call me out of order, but this is my blog and these are my feelings.
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